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“We don’t want it
here.”
-- Police
Commissioner Frank L. Rizzo in response to the announcement that the
Revolutionary People’s Constitutional Convention would take place at Temple
University in Philadelphia on September 7, 1970.
The far northeast had
been immune to the urban problems which plagued the rest of Philadelphia and
other large cities in the United States until the radicals started shaking
things up. Through some ingenious plan
or accidental design it established itself, for all intents and purposes, as a
suburban oasis, ignoring the fact that it was not a suburb. As to the majority of the population in the
far northeast, the American dream had worked for them and it was
beautiful. I can attest to that. Their streets were clean. Their schools were excellent. They had responsible neighbors who cut the
grass and tended to their gardens regularly.
They loved where they lived and they did not want artists and writers,
activists and revolutionaries criticizing the way of life they held dear. That was easy to understand, even for someone
like me, because if I were them I’d hold onto it, too, as tightly as I could
and for as long as I could.
In a place where
neighbors are often life-long friends and where citizens were actively involved
in local schools and politics, average people held enormous power. They could rally together in a show of
solidarity against any perceived threat with the quickest of ease and they
often did in Upper Holmesburg. A whole
block can conspire against one family in their midst because they were black or
because they were from Liddonfield project.
Even a little girl from a housing project was a possible threat, for she
might be the thing that knocks down the whole house of cards. They might say if she is here, then there is
a hole in the system. If she is here,
then there is a crack in the very foundation of our way of life. If she slipped through, then more will slip through
and the flood of undesirable persons into our little piece of heaven will have
begun.
This culture of
exclusion that worked so well for the majority, so demoralized my mother that she
cut all ties to the housing project we once lived in, in the hopes of winning
acceptance. It became necessary in her mind to distance
ourselves from our peers in order to gain advantage. However,
it backfired, causing us to become greatly disadvantaged instead, lacking any
social network or support. I once asked
my mother why she didn’t join some neighborhood citizen’s group whose next
meeting was announced in the newspaper.
Her answer was, “Those groups (meaning any group that influences local
politics) aren’t for people like us.” In
other words, folks from Liddonfield housing project weren’t supposed to mix with
people who had any kind of power to set rules or make demands.
It was not our place. As much as
Mom liked to talk about being just as good as them, she remained steadfastly
intimidated by the more well off women of Upper Holmesburg, who did not have to
question their status in the community.
I
never saw my mother strut with confidence or beam with pride in herself the way
Upper Holmesburg housewives did. Once we
went to the corner store and there was a woman in the aisle wearing a very
stylish outfit. She looked like she had
been to the beauty parlor. Her hair was
perfect and her make-up, flawless. Just
for a moment, Mom stared at her for she made quite an impression. Then I saw my mother gaze at her own frumpy house
dress and well worn shoes with all manner of shame. As the woman moved toward us Mom turned away,
put her head down and hunched her shoulders, as if hoping not to be seen.
My brother Kevin was fourteen now, and was
putting away childish things. He didn’t
need an eleven year old sister tagging along when he trying to impress girls
and stuff. He told me in no uncertain
terms, “Go do your own thing!” That was
a popular saying at the time. Do your own thing. So, he set me free from his watchful eye and
I learned to meander through life on my own.
There was a field down
the block from the row house we lived in after leaving the projects. I got a lot of mileage out of that field as
far as idle playtime. Nobody ever went there because it had a “Private
Property. Keep Out” sign among some
tangled weeds at the entrance. Once I
got past that, there was a big, wide open space where I could fly a paper kite
or toss my boomerang. Kevin and I used
to play there a lot but now I went there alone.
It felt like my own personal field despite the sign. I was pretty good at throwing and catching the
boomerang, but even an expert has to keep her skills sharp, so I spent two
hours one day just practicing. By the
time I wore myself out, it was almost time for supper. As I turned to leave, my foot got caught in the
overgrown weeds. In the struggle to
extricate myself I fell down and ended up sitting among the brush.
There were a few
supplies a boy needed to venture alone in those days: a bicycle to get you where you wanted to go,
a rabbit’s foot for good luck, a dime to call your parents if necessary and a
pocket knife for cutting rope or fishing line or carving. A boy always had to consider that he might
have to get himself out of a jam. Though
I was a girl, my big brother taught me all this and so I pulled out my pocket
knife and cut the tangled weeds.
When I got home, there
was a man in our house and he was talking to my dad. He called my father “Jim” as if they had been
friends a long time. He said that some
guys from the neighborhood were getting together to defend the block during the
race war. It was going to happen soon,
he warned, because Huey Newton was on his way to Philly for the Revolutionary
People’s Convention. He said, “Jim,
won’t you join us? Are you in?”
We lived on that block
for three years and this man never once came to our house before. His children didn’t play with me or my
brother and his wife never gave my mother the time of day. All of a sudden they needed us, so they sent a
representative who hinted at the fact that we would be held in higher regard from now
on, in exchange for our help. My father,
having long been deprived of the respect and companionship of other men, agreed.
“I’m in,” he said. When the man got up to
leave and my dad walked him to the door, the man patted him on the back, like a
brother. “I’ve got sandbags and barricades
stored in my garage,” said the visitor, “I suggest you buy some wood, in case you
have to board up the windows.”
On payday, Dad bought plywood
and nails. He took the shotgun out from the
upstairs closet and cleaned out the barrel to have it at the ready. Mom prayed a lot more than usual. I was very scared. On August 31, 1970 Rizzo's men raided the Black Panther Party headquarters on Wallace Street in West Philadelphia and arrested its members. It made international news. They were released soon after. On September 7, 1970 more than 8,000 activists poured into Philadelphia to attend the Revolutionary People's Constitutional Convention. Rizzo had 1,000 of his men standing by. The convention lasted several days and to everyone's relief, it was peaceful. The race war the public feared never came to pass.
The conclusion of this story will be posted on Monday, September 3, 2012
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